#Sissy hypnosis full#

Extreme anxiety, insomnia, not being sure if I will be able to live a normal life again. It was insane in a dreadful way, and fighting the complusions / addiction symptoms that were created by hypnosis was absolutely the toughest thing I ever did in my life.

#Sissy hypnosis full#

Also the internet was full of wrong information about the files to lure people in, so that the person making these files can cash in. I did not know the exact content and I thought they were just about вЂњfeminisationвЂќ, but I believed blindly that those are some fun files. Which lead me to a dark spot, looking for more hypnosis files and I found some extreme files that can be described as personality erasure. I met the wrong women, because I listened to hypnosis that made me believe that it is good to be treated like sh*t. Typing these words makes me realize that I went through hell and didnвЂ™t even know it.ДЄbout 1,5 years ago I had a couple of failed relationships behind me. But many things make more sense when you look back. Also this records made me believe that all these things were вЂњmine ideasвЂќ. And the only thing they gave me, besides new fetishes were anxiety, stress, panic attacks and occasional depression. Basically the lies I believed, made me believe other more extreme lies. As I listened to the other hypnosis before, I believed that this is something I want and something I like. Later I discovered hypnosis recordings by a hypnodomme, which were also about gender change. And the body dysmorphia was caused by this hypnosis. Now I realize that I had a depression that was caused by body dysmorphia. And I believed that made up experiences really happened. The funny thing is I figured that out over a decade later, I believed that those thoughts were my thoughts. I also had a delusion that I have long legs and I bought some pieces of female clothing and other stuff. I listened several times and I found myself thinking I was born a woman and even wondered if I have a p*ssy later after that. But honestly I did not believe it works and I thought if it works it only lasts for the duration of the 30 minutes hypnosis. I remember that over a decade ago I found a hypnosis video on youtube. As you can imagine, it was a time filled with anxiety. Probably it was curiosity paired with bad influence from p*rn sites. This included joining transgender forums, because i slipped into sissy p*rn. Later at university I unfortunately started my bad habits again. It did not last very long but it was a good relationship. This is probably the reason that I also met my first steady girlfriend at that time. On the other side I started p*rn induced self harming behavior, which I could stop years later.Дuring my time in the military I had little to no access to p*rn, and it made me a stronger person. It was something that was probably connected to a bad childhood experience that I do not remember anymore, but I was told about it. I started crossdressing for fun, nothing serious.

Even during school I watched extreme p*rn and I was masturbating compulsively several times a day. It started with softcore and evolved into different fetishes. Later I accessed p*rn over the internet, which was a novelty back then. I do not know if the owners of the shops thought that IвЂ™m older or that they frankly did not give a f*. I even bought magazines in shops when I was about 14. I first came in contact with p*rn when I was about 12 (IвЂ™m 33 now).

I hope that my success story will serve as a warning, but will also give those hope who went down the same rabbit hole. I did not realize that I had a problem until I almost had a mental breakdown induced by those files. Unfortunately I used those kind of hypnosis files for a very long time. It can be explained as media that destroys lives, produced by malignant people without any ethics or morals. Some of you may or may not know what this is, but if p*rn is an illness, sissy hypno is cancer. I started my healing journey 1,5 years ago after a traumatic вЂњsissyвЂќ hypnosis experience.